A letter from March 15th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, This is me your old Self Mishna. I hope you have been so much better about everything this time. You are writing this letter at exactly 4:51 pm on the 15th of March 2021. Yesterday was rough, you had to deal with a sudden sadness that almost feels like depression. I hope a year from now, you'd be so glad and so proud of myself that you were able to let go of the attachment with that person you have always known that things will not work out great. You have been so stupid enough to allow him to disrespect you, even cross the line multiple times. I hope you haven't changed being a sweetheart and kind. Once you read this in the future, you'd probably gonna have an instant life rewind, looking back and probably smile or disgusted. But you are a total sweetheart, people that know you, who have been really with your company knows how you are, and most importantly, you know WHO and HOW you ARE as a person. Damn! I am 1 year away from being a 30-year-old lady! HAHA. Gosh, I am probably gonna imagine exactly what I am doing, wearing, feeling, and remember every tiny detail of this long afternoon. Today, you're hopeful of tomorrow. I hope you get to reflect often and you've gone wiser. Don't be too Hopeless Romantic, I hope you get to love and patch yourself before you do patch up, someone. I hope you won't always have the need to nurse or save everyone because you know you just can't. You need to realize that sometimes you have to put yourself first before anybody but that doesn't mean you'll stop caring. I know you're pretty strong and you'll bounce back fast. For all those times, that you felt like time was snatched away from you because you have to consider first that person that didn't really value you, I hope you're able to somehow work yourself up back again. The pain will make you a better version of yourself, and you'll thank me- your old self for being courageous. I hope things have been better. Smile sweet you. Deeply love you, Your old Self.