A letter from February 16th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Today you feel stuck and powerless to go forward. "So here I am again, at the crossroads. Wondering for a time about decisions I can take to live out my happiness. Do I take a path of obvious uncanny turns, of turns that take me back here at the crossroads, or set on a path that takes me away into an uncanny future? Sometimes I think, when I make plans for my future, I get stuck into toxic habits in the present, intent on things that will unfold if I stay. It feels like a loop, as I wait for a better path to miraculously open in that loop. But my brain, wants OUT. I want OUT. And I have the power to decide, but why do I stay? If I live in the moment of just going through different paths that take me everywhere, I feel happy, thrilled even. But I keep getting reminded that I don't know where I may end up, that maybe a future isn't there, that I'll be nothing in the end. Do I take the loop of a decided future? Or do I take this path that looks like it goes forward? Isn't that hard to decide, honestly. But why do I stay?" Tell me what you decided a year from now.