letter from December 17th, 2020, chloe

dear chloe, hey :) i hope youre doing well. im not really sure if you'll remember this being written. maybe you're dead. which isnt bad because at least you'll be in heaven. but i dont think im leaving anytime soon. i havent done His plan for me just yet so yeah. i hope that you're still working hard but also with the proper balance of work and self love. its okay to choose yourself. im currently in a pandemic right now. i dont know if by that time the corona virus will be gone but yeah, i hope that you still treasure the people that you love. show your love to them, you never know what happens. its december 17, 2020 , nearly Christmas. i dont even know if im spending it with dad. but yeah. i hope that you still exercise somehow? im really insecure of my body right now but my motivation has its limits. i only have motivation for learning korean, sign language, and crocheting soon. lol i hope you still know. try doing the sign language abc. haha but anyways, i hope that you still read the Bible and have a stronger relationship with God than i do right now. yeah, i know i have high standards for future me, no worries im working hard too. i dont know though, i might get exhausted and give up, and thats okay! thats probably the result of not having breaks! so make sure to have breaks (so you better take a break! how will you help other people if you cant help yourself). honestly, the rest doesnt matter if youre still doing it but you're relationship with God is what matters the most. the piece of paper called a diploma isnt your ticket to heaven. your heart is, and once you die, God is going to reveal whats truly inside of it. i dont know what year i should be sending this too, whether it be 15 yr old me or 16 or 17 or maybe even in my 20s, ill ask God. im running out of things to say. if i die and someone else reads this, please bring this to my parents or to Jaden. or to my relatives or close ones. k byeee i love you future self and i hope you do, too :) love, me <3