A letter from December 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Dylan broke me heart for the second time. But now it’s my turn to get better. 4 days after him leaving I found out i have a little surprise of my own. A baby. I’m excited. So excited. We lost the last baby November 28th, 2019 and I’m still heartbroken. But maybe I’ll be happy being a single parent. Yes, I told him about the baby but apart of me wanted to be selfish and keep that from him. I wanted him to be in part and heartbroken like he left me. But I’m happy to a point. I want to be healthy and happy and thrive with this baby. So for the time being that’s what I’m doing. So... dear Em. I’m proud of you. I’m proud that you didn’t let him get to you. I’m proud that you’re becoming yourself again. Stay happy. Stay strong. And please don’t be hard on him. You’re still kids. So for the time being. I love you. Be good to yourself and remember to eat. You have someone else to feed now so no skipping meals. And please be careful if he tries to come back into our lives. That baby is your #1 now. Stay safe. I love you.