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Good day! Y’all how have you been? I just wanna share with you what I have been feeling right now, cause I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’ve been saving pictures of Taehyung lately and reading posts about him and it made me realize about things HAHAHAHA. It just made me realize that I don’t deserve him for everything he is and he has. The truth is I am one of those persons who is dreaming of marrying him, for everything I/we’ve been looking for the man of our dreams is on him already and I hate it, it made me have a higher standards for men HAHAHAHA, but II still love him. This past few days I’ve been realizing how impossible my dream to come true, I know at the first place it is impossible but I am still hoping and I will always be. The age gap we had made it impossible to come true for I am 16 y/o and he is 24 y/o now HAHAHAHHA. Although we had the same characteristics as jolly but sometimes serious, I can’t get rid of the fact that he is more mature than I am right now, he had experienced more hardships in life that molded to be who he is now. The status of life we both live were both far from different, I just realized that the clothes he wore for a day would be the total amount of our yearly allowance HAHAHA. He is known all over the world while I don’t know the persons living around us. He work for living and my parents were the once who sustain our living. He is handsome as an angel and I don’t look good HAHAHAHA I do accept my physical appearance and I am contented of what I look like but I am still hoping for a glow up. I know that the looks I have won’t attract a Kim Taehyung, for let’s accept the fact that he would have a woman with the same status he had. But I am still glad with the lessons he had thought us, for the good vibes and the jokes he shared, and for all the emotions he had made us feel. I just hope that in the future I would fully be awaken in this dreams of mine that I can’t meet him because thinking of it right now that it won’t come true already hurts, and I don’t want the future me end up being hurt. Do I sound toxic and obsessive in this? I hope that I would be more open-minded in the future HAHAHAH. I was just expressing how I feel. I’m so sorry though taehyung-oppa annyeong! Happy 25th birthday! Thank you for everything, stay positive in life. I’ve known you for a long time but I never thought that I would stan your group and you will become my bias. I also never thought of falling on the person I never met HAHAHAHA. I know it would be hard to find someone like you but if the man that is really meant for me to come, I won’t forget about you. I am still falling for the younger you, your box smile, the moments you are acting cute and the lessons you have shared. Live a good life, and I am happy of everything you have right now, even though I am not there at the moments you experienced hardships I am still proud of you. I know you can’t live a life a normal person is living but live your life happily. Hoping that I could attend your concert when I am successful :> And I hope that someday I would come to realize that I would only love you as my idol not as the man of my life. HAPPY BIRTHDAY and ADVANCE HAPPY NEW YEAR! BORAHE and STAY SAFE ^.^ Love, 16 y/o Yesh:>