A letter from November 29th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi!! You know, I wrote some letters to you before but you still haven't gotten them. Do you know what's happened since the last time I decided to write you a letter? I'm in a relationship with the best guy I could ask for, R. He's the best, he's so kind and understanding and I can't believe I could get so lucky to have someone like him. He changed my life for the better, he helped me fight my demons, he's brought me happiness and joy. We've been on a few dates, one time I even sneaked out to his house and spent the night! We cuddled under the blankets and he said "I love you." After a year of struggling with my sexuality, we were here, in a peaceful and happy place. It was like something out of a movie, and we were the rebellious teenagers. I climbed in through his window, and he helped me up and we laid there in his bed and I could hear his heartbeat. And he kissed me. And he didn't do anything else, he didn't suggest doing the dirty or try to touch me and you know what? It was the best night of my life, it was perfect, he's perfect. It's hard to believe that a year ago, now from when I'm writing you, that I was in such a dark place and that I was actually losing hope of ever getting out of there. We were just existing then, not even living, putting on a smile for everyone and now when I smile, it's not fake, we're not lost anymore! We're not alone, our mental health has gotten better! I hope that you're doing well and that hopefully, we're still in a good place after being in the dark for so long. And if it's not, I want you to remember to keep on fighting and push through, that things will get better even if it seems impossible. Look at how far we've made it!! This is a reminder to keep your head up. If no one's said I love you today, I'll say it. I love you <33 Please take care.