Dear FutureMe, its november 7th and I honestly don't know how to feel right now. I hate myself and honestly i kinda want to die but i don't know. I don't even know if you'll get this letter when its 2024 and you're 20. Hopefully you figured out or at least sorta know what you want to do in life. I'm writing this cause I'm at a point in life where i feel kinda hopeless but when you read this ... I hope u smile.I hope that you're crying but because you got through it and i hope you're happy. Im crying right now but you already knew that. I know a lot of things had changed in those 4 years. Like friends,family but you mostly. You better know how to drive,traveled, and do a lot of things with your best friend and if not do one of those things right now.Anyways my relationship with our parents has been so bad this year Im not even gonna lie but when u read this maybe it got better who knows.There's so many things i want to write about today but i rather not. I don't want to ruin your mood whenever you're reading this.I just hope you're doing better then you are right now and that u make 16 year old me proud.
Epilogue
2 days later
Dear past Me, Its november 7th 2024.....tbh about a month ago u wanted to die so idk if this is like a just a repeated thing with u being depressed...
Own all yrou'e dan btu lehp ttingge ltesa ta. On a xnte adn ooggnelcsyit hpstylsicoog sa ellw yscarspithit kwee a uoy see a ur og now uyro adn twen ot ngiees was. . . . Tsrcodo fo os tlao olat. I this a tighn bad ees bth as n'odt btu. Laer hda veenr yna yuo hepl. . Rttebe a ootk ti tub ognl bht etla revne ehtn esgus i teim sti. Nda ogyolm sa forebe hdda 'uorye hdea ont sa on its lwel mesd nwrgiok seelf rceal rof adn sreodspine nda bene uoyr neics. Tgo ofr didogsean yuo laos lalfnyi dahd. Bur tlesaa budm weer utb swa u ebgin but uyo yhe cna ltfe ti it in u odstrco efel mcdiarat crdaiamt ielk syaawl wyslaa that klie evi in htat okwnn cafe i daem gnieb. Ncei eslfe ivaaitnedld now yb but oeveeryn it atht ftle eben i em lasyaw uardno atnws' vie it leki. I awnt do i arost to owkn swnyyaa thaw. Tberte rhote i anciaifln isebbho hgtir a ym leef nhet it i lcape iont ntaw jbo a htce in be nwo ot eman gdoo uesrpu get nad tjus to acseu. Treseh ahtt so. . Cdhaeng gshtni has aols fo lato. Yftif so osal uoy ikel utb emt ytffi eelppo tefl pelope sit nmya new. . . . To hnmto hitw with aotl ti uyor tbteer i ptas happy )nwosd tohb csein uyo cuhm so eneb ertsnpa nad i sthniapeolir wtih hugor ruoy tshi ewnrdmos(o pus :) ktinh ohw kwno gto vrdie ash mi esgsu thta utb fo. Lto yuo os my a oodm horgthu ti u oguhhrt erev odt'n humc, btu aucse gadl orem hnta niigmae tgo i u i nrui wonk eoplep dlocu uldoc im itnkh etwn. Dhsrpshia ohurtgh gtnreehvyi vginil i be upodr hte me u esdepit ubt i lla rutohgh yb of adn fi of 'mi tnew gnogi u rfo wnok druop u wonk uersfylo dowul nd'to ):. Teh nad im' wkor ot umhc hiehrg ot og i dan ruyo hrihge pu adn nwo ldreo liwl vile etg dlo eeatxcpnsoti rhgti 2s0yr.
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