A letter from October 28th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi, so it's 2021, wow. How did you celebrate this year? Have you visited your brother recently and did he try and get you to talk to your dad again? When you wrote this, you weren't feeling the best and you were going through a hard time with your mum. Seeing her cry made you upset, I hope you guys have moved away from the abusive people by now, you both deserve so much better. Have you come out as bi to your family yet? If not, that's okay, you're valid and worthy of love, no matter what trolls on the internet say. You've changed schools so many times, I hope that you like the one that you're in now. Have you adopted a dog yet, if you have, what's their name? . Which songs have you learnt on the piano recently? I know that you wanted to learn Lonely by Noah Cyrus. I hope that you got to see Matt and spend some time with him. I know people took advantage of your good heart last year, but you should never stop being a kind person, no matter how many people use you, if you haven't already you will find the right people, just wait. I wonder if we've found the book yet 'The truth about Celia Frost', you've been looking for it for ages. I know that we've always been quite shy and reserved, but this year, you could try and maake some new friends, you can do it, I know you can. I genuinely hope that you and your mum are happy despite everything that went on. I know you used unhealthy habits to cope with your depression, but maybe you've opened up to people and found healthier ways. I understand that last year was tough and you had a hard time loving yourself, but just know this, I love you so much and you do matter. You're beautiful, no matter what anyone says . I really hoped you enjoyed today LB and remember to not take things too seriously and have fun being a teenager. Love, Yourself

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hi,
you celebrated with your mum in the garden, there were fireworks and they were beautiful. Your brother has visited recently, but it took months to get to see him...

Ngaai. Ayn imh tdeacecp twna da,d oggin i tath ont hknit itwh to listl h'es oru he hoghtu acotctn to ktasl m'i. Evli wen od (cuodl won oryu dna rmof tihw dolas tesprso in dmeov you you ,omro losok dna peeolp tihw dan gtera ahev heuso ohest of yuo )guhtho a ti astlpn hvae wo,n yaaw rmeo. Uto ireugf eahv ewe'r adn ot tuo are bi emoc tno ew atth we mtie aormnye, urse ew tey e'thvna tub. Sochlo reew' yera, ta os of ngenigiib woers emrtat tbu nikd shti tgo wtn'o all het isninhfig ti far frmo fo not n,ow. To eth lwl'e tub ta by adn anrel etntggi new odgo hte sfotrnige adn on e'ewr e'wre agopitdn ot msnoeoe ytsa but eb 'tnehav sact aertln gosn on lylwoe lno,yel tisll lodalpyc nogig 'ewre nelnrgai ew sgosn na,opi fleuhpoly ,ogd o!son. Rof we okay ihktn i nsee h'netav onlg tnfyluteuoa,nr ,mtei niogd tub a 'seh ttma. Dna ew yrella laeisrde on hits dan wohrt mcuh bene rwnikgo zlfs ersluevos wrold e'wve rofef who uor. Wne difesrn soal ngemiet ahs su hits ralesie dpeelh. 'eewr thikn engahc lliw dikn a sohnyelt sltil 'dnot eerv oesprn, ttah i. Maeks eorm peploe ielk ont eneb em to 'vei vere mtndeideer hte jsut all hourgth eb ethm tath by ahtn tgsinh. ,sone utb 'thneav the caile by ew mnay ianmzag gbotuh ew boko edvlo hciwh like we vhea adre os ,tye fh'fli'atu mf,hfnoa. E'rwe nid,tnoecf sysa mfyles orme vwee' a sujt avla h,ys i aollcaopeyigtunl yltlae fdeleytini engbi adn 'iev sltil igben tub ifel tlo tider wno roem tlka bnee yjionneg yltaaurnl adn. Ahno 'eevw (ni nad wto fs,ndeir tlnrcy,ee dna tath ewn adme r)redo. Dna ryidefl,n tguar,i ylsap and nda setat adn nynfu hs'e is si gdoo omrf poleiovrl isumc eh hsa. Tperty ew orf ihm ,imh igwnnko rwote nogs etrfa ihwch su a nloy si fro ,dasy olsa 2 mipvriesse fro. A,dthere ekil lsveo esh' us -kdin hano orfm nmno,sitea is eartg dan a rnieslet hpyohtorgpa. Yda raendgutdnisn tdidt'n no akem he ddeene eb em was the nad tifsr efel dpoene ot mhi, iedfx up reonkb i saw met ew to vewe'' os leik nda dan. Did is onidg lhep mum eetrtb mvoong w,no oru. Nogkrwi thhoug nwe hes has on satet brihlore ni ht,gsni itsll s'ehs nme. Gimht gniknith attosot ameby of arhi and iaenrtm,hg (ym uor i dna resmum innomet igrceinp faiblueut yed ggitnte ttah 'lmyiafs did nda a knwo) wkon strow wee'r we enos i ew siht ho too. . . Llwi gkinnith :) akrd edr mi' dogo olko.

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