A letter from October 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey, I'll give you a little rundown of what's going on right now. I have court on the 15th where I testify for the first time. I decided to start visitation with Amanda again. I will no longer live with the Vaughns on November 1st. I still have therapy with Josh. I am on Zoloft still. I self-harmed a couple of days ago. I just deactivated my old Instagram, Facebook, and Gmail. I feel numb but also happy, I don't think that I am truly processing everything. CJ is in a shelter doing great, he called me three times in a row. I'm trying to finish up school so I can graduate next year. I haven't looked at colleges yet, and I'm contemplating joining the Air Force when I get out of high school. Now I have some questions 1. Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? 2. Is your relationship with Amanda good? 3. How many years did Spencer get? 4. Rate your anxiety and depression. 5. Are you happy? 6. What's a goal you have for the future? 7. Did you join the military? 8. Are you taking care of yourself? 9. Have you gotten better at singing? 10. Have you lost weight? 11. Have you stopped self-harming? 12. Suicidal thoughts? 13. Have you learned to love yourself? I don't know what else to say except that I hope that you are happy, and I mean TRULY happy. You have come so far and I hope you never stop moving forward in life. I love you don't you forget that.

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

1. Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yes, I do have a boyfriend now, his name is Devin and we've been seeing each other for...

Own a tohnm autbo. . Rea nhtgsi ingog well. Whit be ot pahyp yarell 'im ihm. .
2. Isltarpnohei wiht aamadn royu si o?god.
O,nw esy. Gdoo os. Hse si eb ehwer ot sah mom a deno yoatd fo otl rwok. 'sshe ehsuo ctrelnyru a ibnygu.
3. Scernep owh gte? ddi nyam sryae.
3 i yreas lbiveee he otg. Snoo be uot hl'el. .
4. Eart adn oury yxtiane enresosipd.
Piesrdsneo 1/50 is tyxanie as ysad wlle 510/ tmso. Hnat oebefr rebtte.
5. Era ap?yhp yuo.
I ,yes ho am. I ailnfyl ma.
6. Ahve fro ogal eth terf?uu a tw'sha yuo.
Mcolsgyotoe ot abidr i hlocos og d'lsihcenr hira and ot nwat etrsfo.
7. Idd tiyirl?am you onji teh.
,on uoy atnyxei oll tno'd dki eorisesp,nd lfuoseyr veha nad.
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I i etsg rtbete ayd yreve ahv,e it kinht ehra i.
10. Yuo sotl heav ethgiw?.
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11. Rsfnhelm-i?ga vaeh edoppts ouy.
Sey. 6 yare !lcnea 1 i am thsnom nda.
21. Iadsuilc outhgh?st.
Go nad ,uhcm not thye moce sa od. .
13. Laednre eolv oyu heva ot r?elyusfo.
Ot i'm nlaer atigrsnt how to. . . Eyevr neocisdi a ayd nueleyltav it's erbzee a it lwil eb. .

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