A letter from September 2nd, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Lillian, I'm literally in such a bad place right now. Shocking, right? It's not like it gets worse every year I go forward. But that's just the overview. I know in the small moments that things are good. I'm taking baby steps toward my dreams. Even though I feel discouraged a lot of the time, I can't deny the progress. You need to look at the small moments right now. Listen, I know you're stressed. You haven't had a final exam in over a year, and you've NEVER had a final for college. Think about this, though. In a week you'll be cozily laying under a blanket, Christmas music on, lights dim. School will be done for the time being, and you can finally relax. You have scaled mountains that I haven't even discovered yet. To be frank, I'm jealous. You're lucky compared to me. But if you're reading this, you know I succeed. If not, then you either ****** yourself or failed so bad that dad ****** you. Uhhh... Hopefully neither of those things happen. Anyway,,, Yeah! Don't forget to brush your teeth and take care of your hair. Be nice to someone today, even if it's you. AND HAVE FUN!!! I don't care if there's a pandemic, I don't care if you're depressed, I don't CARE IF YOU'RE LONELY!!! Have. Fun. It's Christmas! With lots and lots of love, A very hopeful younger Lillian :)

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hello, Lillian,
I'm not the same person you wrote this letter to, and I think that's for the best. Seriously, being in "a bad...

Nmdi yraler cel"pa nyorema srceoss my is ttah nethgoism. So hi!wle tgnhsi bene hpapy ustj rea rof doog a vei' ,yse. Etcunino tgisnh i'm to in etsoh nda trnu veha necutndio srtso aybb uoy ,em ldga eehviac tffsore edhlep i ot etvhrwea ortdaw phoe ni ot od eth ,elfi uv'eyo esspt asem abeecus onw amek fo.
Rof me 'tsahn mhcu fo oot opmrleb a ebne slocoh. Etkas em do dna y,se of hr'tees tino ehilw ffotre 'eevw of mi' eecvahi to utb yflmse otn'd teh i wrok y,lsmfe idltbageo orf eefl spuh gnica ouelssryi 'eteshr eben i ecmadiac htta esrsst ti it! nwok eebrtt, ot to dan dupor oomr xle,ceeecnl het eht. Olw oogd opst im' of nda tewse ceon ni naaig eht ntostixeacpe adesgr.
Rishstmca ofr sa. . . Seu flla tib of won htirg cudol aelylr i a. Os emmsur the ;rithg to dan to tsayn yoru'e at het atwgnii ofr mmtenso s,tart onw samll edn ritgh oolk i im' mesti oogd tub ot dene. In nvee emsrum day dgoo a ervenhgyt,i toh thr'see. Oo!t imaaclg a si now eb but tbi llfa githr llwi lleitt acg,mlai.
Say tath os ahtt dekowr arf aya,wyn lla dan tuo ot is ahs sjtu l,wle ppyha vreyitehgn mi'. Cutenoni npeahsp martet n,o ew hatw on. ):.
Hnksta ofr lte,ter het.
Ilillan <3 -.

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