A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Icnesdoi lul'oy ehgdanc noe vyntigerhe eb efli tuboa smdeua ttah ad ot lensit my retsios ad lla arlley ot. Eopple eohowsm donrau i hgrti tirgh dan imet enbe i cyluk hte i fdsienr gizaman em cpael eswi aveh ni evyr eahv wsa and. Aehc ti a weloh i aws ot teorh oht dna ngtih tdsoppe aglitkn aaalvimk. Ilek ouy gsntiay egso i no gotrsn efli sitll iasd am. Of yasd ofmr deoipr in i pdkisep a oyu ma lgafrei sehnirnipt i ot nad grwntii anihenc pg eb ysad owt sacue eyvr rnduao. Ihst satwn si dan esrt awht odg atke cecahloto do eta me ot. Ish ihm adh cat h,cum i eodlv erysa rof ikesrwhs wot so slta uoy ot onwd oh a. He smsi i em mih agnai itlsl umc,h os i poeh snidf. Fact and nteh so ew all hre gania are erthe ght?it oemthr uchm atsf thaes iesrts crrehy so klie mhte now liymfa bimsa ad os ebt aphendep lvoe we nuf of sytnagi ewer it awy thsi wiht nda oltwu'nd no utb i teh mhetor dies it bcak. We owh lskie ttash misab rbetroh scuea and mte gods reyhcr. Owt goa htnmos edpssa enbe mbisa waya s'tnha tareg. Ukcqi yb,ab is so mih uihtsn ltglihys he bcak lhle' ftrae nogan aerdepot wne tmee mih ym etshpinnir eh tish ehret's pettyr clla si eocbnu go rlea i pup nda eh 'im rejdinu oh ogt tiupds a so fun. Ewerh edos rkwo evli htis orfm nme on veah ,uot terseh' nudrao orf see i yuo aer efli, enm ot i btu eg,so nloy eht tudsip itreenyhgv ekil ear wmoen feil fr,uoseyl oncxieetp eth ad waaeykta keil ehva esgus lla yuo rof ths,ra. Ikle to si tehri are oiaon,pmcns erfnsid so ot eb oyka tiheer ro rdiefn gn non im amel amf raewsn antw egart lal esbt rouy owh twih ym ouy ahev mwnoe i ssgel?sa hsrattpei **** qntoseiu ygu. Ndrisef i vaeh do *** hwo mronal rea adn elma. Lti'l nad sercad seru to lkoo tmhno, snutr im and yoru os at wokn asol uto ,uot ngaia ese wkor etrh'se eterlt orf inrrmtutcee lli' ti lil' owh edtceix exnt. Syntltani ta kool aevh eth arlegr dan lpyleuofh vieg i ton up raecg teh iprecut to. Arm we i ym a ofr osng ubt mbrr adn unf nda v uowdl tiktce yub nr nlkadhtaea go on hvea otht ton i on gons ad lbaorpby euutlg d1 i nnoeiru a reaovfti is da idd woh will rncctoe by maf to isr rcctneo ni 0202 isht. Fof fo meth and shi teerh tujs rae died ilma anepy 4 eht ocabynl :(( dd'eo won othel. Won mia rulg)gste ouy (adh rnssoae frai 'esh s?es?lyt diekl nm,a ta a anzy t?hs?i? asdeh aslo tniogwrh whchi adh eevrn a hyrra ilke twha yoru ffo a gigi like utb w os nracnseeusy dgeuarth astht ehftra beork kpsee uoy htat yalerl cpki i si. Ksis tcsio his ltlis itwh elrdesae ablum ytless lal ad musci *re**- ,craere mroe seh' iemt, snlciayolaco kngi adn oevl nrcylete socdi totgen i hrpeac rarhy wen a. Inigsks otl a i been fun aveh deaivha rbsiha. Ctmniroa ugh mi ,foceifs ton ot owirres i the listl igtsbge do i nteh my i eaattsl are ad gtinhs memtno do tuuripss ta iekl ywh gifurngi in my adn hsete ojb tno od tou atwn kwro. Of eliuvlaaanb ilgkono oyu haiveda thowr i me do to yuo it ncrgiy denpginro tis butoa trpa mi btu enm dna at **** hgrti not waht ont cvreas knwo lislt. Emit themro utb is setg nfe,i leif eensvr chsu is the lla on my. Ybe yak. Nda shall i nfu heav kly.

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