A letter from July 20th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Tonight is two weeks since one of the worst days of this year. It's when I found out about him cheating and everything else. Currently I feel like I'm moving past being numb and shocked but realising its reality now and I've realised I can't fix everything. We're in the middle of a pandemic, work is so hard to face into and I'm taking it day by day. There's a weight off my shoulders I didn't realise I needed gone. The worst part is I never got a true apology or remorse. I kissed a boy on Saturday and cried all day Sunday because everything became real. I'm not sure will I ever get the explanation and apology I deserve but I hope you have moved on and you are happy. I hope you have had a chance to discover yourself and become independent. I hope you don't depend on people as much as you used to and I hope your friends are good to you. Remember this girl as the one who was put through everything and more and she still kept her head held high. You deserve everything and don't forget it. Do you still cry when you hear the night we met? Do you still love tongue tied? Don't forget how much you've made it through and how STRONG you are. I hope you're off anti depressants for good and that you're thriving. If you're not, that's Okay but this is your kick in the ***. You deserve the world. Lots of love, Laura Tuesday 21/7/2020

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hello old me,

It’s 2022 now, nearly 2023. I laughed at this letter, so much has happened but I’m still the same person, just with...

Fo eiwv a nfferdeti feli.
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Emro ogt ertehotg thrhogu dan twne veen you rehbrakeat kabc. Ilifngerrd now a tngtoe waht kober pu uyo knwo tgo onit ’sehs tedn’os h’es ohw nda. .
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Yda urdviesv ttepmta yuo regter an ttah ot ouy thsi. Fdiereftn eslcipa ouy osne fo btu veha a tol yoru no,w ndrifes lslit ethos era.
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Yuo sehto you otg sjob naetwd. Yuor leavu uyo and iceov luorfyes. Apccte nda oyu vlaue uoyr ruyo nekwsseesa gttshesnr.
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Geyvrniteh him ese nam aholhtgu ntewad ni alyerl a adh ’yuoev eur’oy uo,y letting ot thwi hwo is gunsigtgrl lvedeltar. ’esh a nad nyritg dnigo obj good. Fro kpee veah ht,me tbu y’erou lagiennr dboneirasu maeyb go yrou nda nwo it what ll’yuo vgei a how mrteta ot no.
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But uvoye’ chmu who nlarede peoc e)hmt cifrohir tgnaik ot acl(ncyilhet ta sedptsrtsinaena orue’y but on os ltsil ttrebe. Ont as gdoo ot spot ,mchu ouy ofr it’s nrkdniig nede uyo. Ilslt oeplpe yuo leov robse wehn.
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Iths nvee lrette dtnd’i kbac ’duoltnc leki eno so at ear ay,re ucmh alts ew did ycr eher uyo wetir tbu yuo ouy htta.
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You ilev tghim nxte notehar elif onahret tihs htiw ni meti onuyrtc erya. Ngtixeic ratlev eht txne few levtra dna ayrse oyu eatlvr ear ohep i os. .
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Rdupo mi’ gihtr of het ou’yer on oy,u so path.
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Ryea ese enxt oyu. .
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