A letter from June 23rd, 2020

Hey D, today is 23 June and ... I am ok with the end of this friendship. Ok with living the rest of my life in peace. Ok with end of my gig at L&C, ok with my grandma dying. I am Ok with everything and nothing needs to be fixed, everything is really ok. Not had this feeling unless I meditate a lot or last time on Spanish retreat but here today I am ok, if I don’t see him or see him, I am ok. This is such a good sense of Just being stable and grounded alongside with what happened, sense of being ok and comfortable here. I am comfortable where I am, I am not amazing, or shamazing, just ok. I have food in the fridge, good skincare, hot water on tap, job I enjoy and my good one bike. I still have a dream and it’s a fun one and it’s the one for me to live closer to the sea and go swimming to the sea in the summer and have garden to grow a bit of veg and have cups of tea in, and I hope it’s gonna come true but I also think if I keep going feeling grounded and stable, I’ll be happy too. I know it’s been a roller coaster to get here, but I am glad I got to this point, not a place I’ve been before, I like it. Stable. Grounded. I want you to know I am rooting for you, future D. I don’t know you, but I know when you read this letter you’ll remember typing it at 23 26 because you felt ok and wanted to remind you now and in the future you can be in this good place. I love you, peace from 23 June 2020 x