A letter from May 30th, 2020

Dear me , How are you now ? I hope you're fine. How was your relationship with him ? Did you guys become closer haha . Are you still had interest in medic ? Don't give up Najihah you can do it , don' stop . But if its too hard , stop for a while and cry as much as you can . Then , start a new day . Are you still had heavy thoughts right now ? Well , I dont know how to help you but find someone to talk about then you will become lighter right ? How was your relationship with mom. Today is the 3rd day I dont talk with her because of the aircond issues . If you cant get along well , then dont come home often , dont call her too much . It will just make you become sadder . You need to find strong support Najihah or not you will drown .Najihah , please live as an adult , dont trust people too much , dont depend on another too much , you need to survive with your own feet . Dont be fragile ok I know you're strong . I just hope next year I am happier and better from this year . You are not alone Najihah ok ? Najihah , be more kinder please ok , help others too . How was your saving now ? How was your study ? Is it covid 19 had ended . Do you still studying online ? Well , its not too late right good luck for entering final year , come on one step closer ok haha. I hope you solve your own thought problem . Najihah , I think you are scary person . You want things to be perfect just like you want but you know you've to accept other people weakness . You also have weakness right ? So learn to tolerate ok ? Tell yourself its ok to be like this and please find help if you cant handle yourself anymore ok ? Well , goodbye , please be more happier ok !