A letter from May 17th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey what's up. This is really stupid and prolly won't work but yeah. Its Sunday may 17 2020, still in quarantine. Doing online school. Freshman yeah. Haven't left my bed today. Poodles still alive he slept through the whole night with me for the first time in forever. Mom still gets mad about him peeing everywhere. Im still hurt with my back and hamstring, I did speedwork tho with the weidleighs. My hamstring did okay but my back hurt I did 50 sit-ups in a row which was pretty cool. Im dating Ryan. We've been dating four months two days ago, and at the end of this month it'll be six months together. I dunno if he's still with you, me? us? idk man. If he is that's cool. He's sweet idk I guess I'm the one that isn't the best. He's getting a new kitten next week and I get to help name him. Idk why he needs another but its whatever. He owes me a lotta dates I guess. I want formula fresh or sushi moto maybe Osaka. I love his sisters they have a lotta fun with me. Norahs two and she says my name all the time. Remember when he got those pretty flowers with notes attached there still in my room. He got mom a mothers day present. I still copy poems verses and quotes in my notes I started writing my own recently which I liked. Im currently at around 230 so if you kept that up im proud of you. But honestly I want you to be able to talk to people about your feelings I know that's lame but you need it. I hope you're positive and happy with life. I hope you are in love with yourself and living. I hope you found a couple close friends. People that'll always be your family. I've started that smeed. Im curious to see how that turned out. Don't try to get rid of your emotions by that stuff cause the beach turned out not good loser. I hope you don't have to rely on what other people think about you. Yeah its prolly good to be like your sister and to be like the people around you. I think by now we can be done feeling just average and not good enough to run with any of them. Its okay to be yourself. ew that sounded so like blah. Do people still call you the mom? Have we gone to any parties? Do you still have the blanket? Are we in our new house yet? I know the dock is getting finished in about a week. Do we like it? How are our grades? Are we back in school? Am I the only one who gets sick of the aspect of love? Like it makes me cringe. Hows the back are we done with this therapy and hurting now, cause when you get this it'll be about 3 years. Hows our spiritual life? I don't want you to lose that. If these work I wanna do another one for later on. Life feels like its moving so fast. But everything is so slow at the same time. Oh hold up. We have a car now right? Dangggggg how is it? Do we get to see Ryan all the time? Or have we gone on a car date. No toxic relationships even with friends. I want you to find an outlet a sport again or someone whose older but understands, a person you can talk to who can give advice and go on car rides with. Judgement free. Someone whose always there. Hows our music taste? any new artists? Still peep x and whatever. Any reading? You are a fracking stud, you're hot asl remember that bb. You don't owe anyone shittoki mushrooms. I love you, you're getting there lovey. <3 Well, I think that wraps up the first one. You got it keep going. Life can be fun. Enjoy it for once. xoxo, you <3