A letter from May 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey girlyyyyy!!!! It's me, your 15 year old self. How's life now that you're older? Did you figure out what job and college you wanted to go to?? I hope you're okay, and alive to be honest. Things have been really rough recently, and I'm scared that the hole I dug for myself is getting deeper again. Growing up is hard. I'm really close with Marissa, Ray, Grace, Elijah, Matthew and CJ right now. Aspen and Madison are my best friends, as well as Elijah and I'm still talking to some of my friends back at middle and and at my new high school. I wonder if things have changed for you, if you've lost friends or have gained a new fear because of something you had to learn the hard way. I want to tell you, that things always do get better. And don't let change or the fact tat your growing up be the reason you can't have fun. I know you might be tearing up at the thought of how things used to be, and yes I know those were hella happy times but you have to be strong. It's okay to cry. But don't let it put you in a time where you felt like risking it all. I bet you're stronger now, and more mature, and I'm really proud of you. I hope you're not into drugs or weed, because girl shame on you if you're doing that LOL. Have you fallen in love? Or.... found someone that is actually fit for you??? I hate to mention him.... But have you talked or found out anything about Tanner? I still think about him ya know? It sucks that I do. I wonder if you've lost weight? I hope you go to the gym and make really good smoothies when you're hungry haha. Because I'm about to start making smoothies. Is Sthefany and Jose still together? How's mom? I hope you have a really good relationship with Aunt Brandy. For some reason, she just gave me such the mother type of vibes. I know you don't really have a mom anymore, and it's hard to see other really cool moms out there since you never had a cool mom. It's okay. Are you still on with that plan on not getting married or having kids?? I hope your clothing style is FIRE. I know you really wanted to work and get the clothes you aspire to have. I don't really have that many questions. Well, I got caught with a boy, me and Elijah dated for like 3 days, actually I'm on facetime with him right now eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...... Isabella dropped me, Andrew got stuck in Peru, OH YEAH I HOPE YOU LEARNED SPANISH because I want to talk to my family from Peru so baddddddd.... Anyways, I guess this is it, I might make another letter when I'm actually focused. MWAH forehead kisses 4 u <3 byebyyeeeee