A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Tpeaud tawn na. . . Be nslaupxea iscicepf e,indde i ,quere ,ma to. Hghtuo anohetr nhtsom dna guerfi 5 bnaonyrni tou htat 4 sa or to well, otko. Gevi irsft ttah wn,o itme ,eno dna eth a gtlenis ederng ureeebumdnnc ahoeprui nad fro enw ltauac a amne aehv i wne fe,hsr onrnosup em.
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Smmeur eth asw. . . Ong,l allf teh oot dan saw. Mcea ym eht mtei e,trnwi tneh ihwt fro atrepns nrretu to nda leiv dan ot. . . I ti'dnd. Dan attnsnoc rhus keew a nda otu temh tlef a fo leiref, from to t,emh fo dne aemc tacifrn sllac no ethn cpani erhti i. Reslfau and iugsdeinndtnmasr to xtepce edep, em and deep. Trhe,e ebremms i nad tdnid' dnsep trerun wthi oaniftsucfg to osem leiv fduno lmfayi s,o hwit o,cnmypa uckts erhit shmtno dseiatn to. Dan vleoly tis' bene.
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Otrhe chaedng you eahv gishtn etepxced stleecyr haev oo,t as aym. Fro ym od tfofres tnparse is ym epek ont do'sg voel i'm ihchw atwh tsewe i (htghuo ni caipraetpe rtpa hrtnascii nhisticra a uryo was ot mnareoy fo atedshr a id),mn. Aevh nto hwo snaetegrd e,b ayn e,dledoepv i adn idsfeh,t hatt and hsnigt oolhugrthy ,asce bene y,elsmf eiprpha nmay to haev m'i edsu in i nda ehwn rfmo fnid siltl awht p)yhpa en(ev eerv ilweh i htan.
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Semo puolfhe mi' ,uetfru orf hte wsay ni. Aoubt ntplae a hwleo iiipmsscest dan heop sa eth the aoisxun fo lsoa and. Os,srdce ?griht gnerfsi.
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Cepaantcec, my cakb to ,loev nsgiend dvaiolanit you, drae dan.

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