A letter from April 18th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Wow about 10 minutes ago i found out this was a thing. I am currently 12 and the time is 23:25 on saturday the 18th april. So, theres a lot to say. How are you? are u still alive because i dont even know if i would've had the strength to stay alive. I am currently in quarantine from covid-19, single (well complicated) and very alone. Have you had a boyfriend yet? are u skinnier or fatter? are u happy? Whats music do u listen too? do u like rap? if so do u like tupac and biggie still? what options did u chose? Are u still friends with katie? Are u important now? Do people still hate you? A recap of 2020 so far... well this year has been a very bad year for u mentally and physically. your depression has got very hard and painful to deal with. U feel as if u have no worth and that u are alone. No one will ever love you and none of ur friends deeply care about you. Your anxiety has calmed down a lot and you are very impulsive. You have too much time for people who dont care about you at all and you would do anything for people. Whats the new trend? currently on tik tok it is to ask ur boyfriend if they would still love u as a worm and the words most used are rahh, leng, clapped, ahlie etc Do people compliment you? do boys like you? have u got any new pets? hows biba?are u still being treated like **** by francheska and ellie? have u got any new friends? whats the year like? is it better then 2020? what news things have u got? How did ur 13th go? did u make up w nanny and grandad? where have u been on holiday/ where r u gonna go? at this moment in time, katie just told u she likes taylor and u dont know what to do, you dont want to speak to either of them, joss is looking for another boy for u. i may make another letter if i think of what ive missed. you also go to sleep at 6am and ur mum is taking ur phone away from u at 11:30 bc u have online school.

Epilogue

9 months later

i’m doing okay. it’s the 3rd year of covid (not in a lockdown at the mo but there’s been talks ab it lol) i am single but i was in...

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