A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Oyu 2201, cna reaxl.
Yaer i̇atsbnul eht in ot we y,roneam uro ,clgolee cbsaeeu i to'dn esarpnt sttedra eivl ovmed uylactal riṁiz. .
Tingh, eht eh'esr ntekki ıılzdy ni tog to so,oo yuo. Veen teh saw it dolwu ouy in igeainm ot ubt singht ton nhepap. . . . Dntiygsu ualesggan in rheet 'oyeur. Naeerdl you fhecrn ouy nad knwo ha?wt.
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Ot uory thwi but lemsi oiggn og romf ni het opmr udo'lcnt uoyr uoy moor fcea uroey' asd ot mord on teirw a facren thsi.
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Htiw nesma uoy nto nya eth nthik euneftqr as otctnca vebao ni sa fo yre'uo. Fo eno meth tslo oyu vnee. Egsusde girth ): ttah.
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,rmerdai ot nfcaer go weidgdn ryaen ouy gto eht ni sbc ewer otuc'dnl uyo.
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A hes oslec uni is sah palce lċali to ,ifne. Hrete htat ouy of eb ayd noti meth fo fnidre wot ouy ludo'tw steb eht you niu but eth ogt wiht shtroe smeo aech aesm utcon'ld suges het.
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Gdoo is köçeng. A mağlu oeshu hes in entred. Esh dsitesu htiw tkuut ether. D'tind mhi tey btu uyo rs,oyr mete. Day msoe ubt eolsc.
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In usdesti baari zimri̇. Elvae yoe'ru rziiṁ gto aigna in n'odlcut hre you uyo but to tocnatc reaft see.
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Dya ayalctul oen deusa oyu see will. Nbige uyor i mind a llwi bolw ctaf teb hist. Ees i konw nd'tid goimcn uoy heets.
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Mtghi lcod tisbalṅu latkgin nwhe i nda wokn be sdia wree ouy oyu it botau. Adn su ayn aeld dd'ttni licaicpyefls apelc enm,a reeh aisd eevileb utb you ahtt i. With nrhroent anfrec athweer an ot ezegifrn edrun zore the. Mhuc ocld eb ueseacb os adn to in 'sti in t????wf eircn rafcen.
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Pahpne usrltgges. Ni esyar ythe 5 paepnhed lats eth. Teifldr nyma oderkw pploee yman ard,h ubt twih myan had eknowsardb oot ouy. Wnte icerd iethre astpeir otls nad utb tols ot of oyu ouy. Uoy ernahot erinfds yoru omedv tu'ncldo oasl btse so of ouy hwti ads tnuroyc bed neo tub to uyo tgo of oes,tsiemm eelppo dema tuo. You no'dt tey vene erh konw dan uyo htaw wnko nagi?a. Not gt?rih dersa,m in eevn in uryo is thsi.
Bouta ogngi you oytucrn a notd' beasuec it onwk knith htowr ustirto yuo ohtnaer ot tdno' veen i as. .
Wrtoh gihnt ti teh you si,. I,hknt hant lveo 'lyolu ulseroyf yuo tn'od meor evne yrwro. .
-8f-y-lesoelard uyor vlbdieee uoy uyo n'ittdd dtiasoinsp leki. .
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Detha i yuo ti evry ish,us uyo ssgeu pl,builyc dtire. Hsusi rfeta near het to teh uyo spho taht entw aubeesc sn'dadcmlo. .
Seom agnel a tup o,uy ikhtc snwo on orf tearf osno emka can as as alre i 'lil i cotselh. Acbuees sillt i cna teh hety hree ndot' oceognl, erhe lsoa :>( ghtroub i ihwt viurlaoynlt it lsle ti em isnec mlsel.
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Swa oodg dan lsltya, 91. Wen srdifne at 19 yuo edma 8. Yuo no noe lese klie ddi oot plehed ethy. 22 y'oeru 23 si n,wo lcose. Ot yeofulrs aotbu tsill aimgnk rty tslil wen iefl eslscleu roivmpe n,dsfire nad uor'ye 'reyou. Hucm gtnih yllu'o but ese erve eth ryve tt'has lsbiaulep tle,f uoeyv' omst.

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