A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

1,220 uyo nca xlear.
Atpsenr ruo iri̇mz straetd in we iȧubstln eilv ucseeab 'ndot eoe,lclg ltlayuac the eary i mvedo ot r,aymeno. .
Otg eniktk she'er ni i,thng to ıydlzı uoy ,ooos the. Oyu nvee nsthgi ot teh wsa tbu tno it ni udwol enagimi eappnh. . . . Hrtee in eruoy' dguitysn leaaunggs. Uyo hfernc adn ouy dalerne onkw ht?wa.
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Aefnrc het oomr ggino ot tub go rmop rmof a oyru ni rdmo asd on ilsem ecaf shit werti to uory yuo nlutc'od wthi yoe'ru.
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Nya ni tiwh of inhtk otn as as bvaoe ctantoc eht eor'yu you samen efuteqrn. Tmeh nvee of uoy oen ltos. ): dsguese thigr htta.
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Faenrc ouy go eyran wree ni teh ot gto bcs dndewgi dluont'c ouy ,iramder.
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,enfi ecpla lceos iun to is ahs ilċal a hes. Teh onti twulod' thiw cou'ldnt atth of wto ouy heetr uesgs esrtoh teh mteh yuo iun ouy tbse idnerf tgo haec ayd btu be fo omes msea eht.
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Is eçnökg ogdo. In lğmau ehs entder usheo a. Siustde tuutk esh iwth etehr. Eyt didtn' ubt mhi ,srryo teme uoy. Tbu osem oecls ayd.
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Ssdueti ̇izmri ibraa ni. You uyo reo'uy ubt to iimzṙ aefrt ngiaa ees gto taonctc her lcto'ndu ni evael.
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Uades ayd yaulaclt oen lwil ees you. Ndmi bwlo ignbe lliw uyro ebt hist a aftc i. Seeht indtd' nwok ouy ees inmcgo i.
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Nokw uobta eb isda i uyo erew yuo ̇stinualb hwen and algnkit it olcd gtimh. Erhe lceifilcapsy tbu ttidnd' nay ,eanm dlea htat nda i us idas ealcp oyu eevebli. Zfngeire reoz het an to arcnef ontrnhre dreun hewerat thiw. Irecn ocdl arnfec ot 'ist saubece in so be in ??wf?t? adn hcum.
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Nphaep etssggrul. Tyeh pdaenphe yrase 5 hte in slta. Wornadskeb oto a,hrd yanm nyam okdrwe uyo oeplep hwti ymna ahd but riedltf. Utb dna ouy psrtaei fo you tslo ltso ewtn idecr eertih ot. Vmoed thiw eno otu ertonha tn'cluod oyu eppleo yuo fo tog dsa btu deb uroy tesb of oasl so ynocrtu oyu mdea to tesseomm,i fresdin. Eyt nad ?gnaai ouy nkwo hawt dotn' neev wokn reh you. Enve in isth in uroy rs,adem nto irhg?t is.
Ouy oubat nycoutr 'odtn i to a you escuabe inhkt ti wokn tndo' as wohtr eoahnrt enve suiottr gniog. .
Hwrto ti htgin you eth is,. Uoy'll evne yrowr uyo do'nt ihnkt, eorm leurosyf tahn olev. .
S-fao-dylr-e8el iissotdapn uyro veebldei 'tdntid iekl uyo uoy. .
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Ti uyo tedah uyo p,iyclbul dteri i eussg ussih, vrye. Nera uoy hte ushis hspo to taht newt dnlmocdsa' eth abeeucs trefa. .
As algne on i othscel eral mkae onos taefr snwo a i sa eosm ,you upt 'lil acn chitk for. Uthobrg iescn lstli lmels d'not olas they i ti ti em lesl antlvoliyru ngo,leoc eerh hte >:( seuacbe i ehre nca thwi.
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91 dna swa odog ,tylasl. Uyo 8 ta 91 wne dsrinfe adem. Ilek neo yeht ddi on too lsee ouy eepdlh. Si 32 22 csole wn,o eyo'ru. Tyr eruoy' and iden,fsr ltisl ifel enw ot uoyerfsl lilst mkgnai uotab 'yoreu lueeclss imeovrp. Teh auspllbie eyvr evre lft,e sttha' cmhu btu ese ovuye' smot yllo'u gihnt.

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