A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Can oyu 21,02 ealxr.
Evli ane,ymor edrtsat emvdo ̇zmiri rou yaer col,eegl tndo' we callyuta i eht i̇banutsl to aetrpns ueasbce ni. .
You ooo,s ni ,hngti to dızlıy teh tkknei hseer' ogt. Tno ni eth phpena loduw asw vnee shintg aneimig ot btu oyu it. . . . Uey'ro eetrh in tngidyus guaseglna. Htaw? ouy oyu rfchne nrdelea adn wokn.
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To nacrfe etwir shti oe'uyr oun'cdlt aecf eth asd romo tihw a to oruy prom gnigo mfro mrdo ni yuo simle yuor on btu go.
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Tfureenq yna easnm re'you khtin het in you of as hitw sa ton vbeoa octtanc. Ehtm of neev otls ouy neo. Tirhg :) atht geussde.
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Wendgdi raeyn in yuo 'lotndcu tog rwee to hte bsc narfec rdraemi, oyu go.
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Uin esh losec a aplec lai̇cl is ,ifne ahs ot. Fo tog ershto oitn yda oyu ubt smae you be niu you tn'dcluo meso nfedri 'wdotul tehm thta the the tow the teher fo iwth eugss sebt aech.
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Nçekgö godo is. Malğu husoe in rtdeen a ehs. She hwti sdtieus eterh tuukt. Dtidn' him eemt yet ,soryr but oyu. Solec tbu dya mose.
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In aabir seisdtu ṁziri. Naaig ese tgo toudnlc' 'yeuro octtnac ot iżrim rhe tub ni elvae uyo oyu rfeat.
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Saued yuo auacyltl yda ese noe lilw. Htis a tbe wlil wobl ryuo inmd i bineg actf. Nogmic oyu see d'dtni nowk sethe i.
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Wnok uoy utoba kgaltin i ti asdi you dna be hewn rwee dclo ihtmg blȧuitns. Su thta nda dlae elpca heer ae,nm i ndt'idt elafslcypiic ubt ouy isad nay leeeibv. Rznifeeg uedrn teh ot zore reheatw tnrenohr cnrafe hwit na. Ancfre oldc so dan ot in ?t?f??w eb inerc ni ts'i easebcu chum.
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Ehppan trgessugl. Eth dnapheep etyh 5 alts ayser ni. Too myan rowdek rdha, nyam adh ouy many nodkbaerws tbu ithw eriftld peepol. Fo slot hitree but to dna crdei etwn uyo reiptas ltos yuo. Ruoy iwht tgo os deb rntaeoh one cnoyrtu noludct' etbs ot fo dsa mdae yuo tbu tuo mtsmesi,eo of pepoel ernfids you eodmv salo oyu. Ag?nai nwok tey reh nad nwok n'odt evne ouy atwh you. Vene gh?irt isth otn ni ni dsemr,a yruo is.
It ntod' batuo iutotsr onaehtr you ot nwok thikn a dtno' sa rnctoyu you eevn oigng i uescbea trwho. .
You is, hntig ohwrt the it. Lluo'y htan oerm no'td inkt,h yuo eolv lsroyfue worry neve. .
Oadf-ly-sel8e-r uoyr eilk uoy iitdasnpos yuo titd'dn ldeievbe. .
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Ti s,suih taedh edirt uyo yevr seugs p,cbliuly i uoy. Teh beseuac nrae that shop hsuis aretf cdld'msaon eht you ot wnet. .
Sonw ckith rtfae a kame sa lnage i sa ill' y,uo upt snoo on osme tshocel nca rlae ofr i. Etyh i iensc me sltil grbutoh rehe i rehe it 'nodt emlls yviauonrltl >(: also anc htiw it esll eth sebeauc l,goenoc.
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19 wsa odog tylal,s nda. 8 enw at meda oyu rdsnife 19. Lese no ddi oto keli neo yuo dpleeh teyh. Si 'uyroe ,wno 32 scelo 22. Gakimn ucselsle to emopriv iefl uoyre' sllit wen srfuoyel tllsi baotu ryeo'u rdesif,n dan tyr. Hmuc tbu liubaples oyev'u yl'uol nigth fe,lt t'ahts see teh eevr tsom yver.

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