A letter from February 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, This is the day where I tend to feel disheveled again. This is the day where I have trouble communicating around me. With all the negativity I have with myself, I feel like some of my friends are toxic [like me] because they do feed my negativity and hatred for people. I don't want to dwell in this kind of situation any longer, but their rants about the same dislike that we have, only, just only, prolongs the negative in my life. and I don't want it anymore. I don't want to hold grudges for this long. I have trouble coping up with it. And feeding that grudge makes it even hard for me to forgive that person. I can't even. That specific friend that I have, she keeps on ranting on lots of things, and there are times that I don't feel like hearing it but, she would find time, some would find time to point out my negative again and would try to trigger my dislike for people at the hundredth time. i hate it, I don't like it. I am writing this for the future me, and if you happen to read this in the future, it would really help a lot in understanding yourself even more, worse, laugh at it all. in the future me, I hope you'll bloom with positivity *_*