A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

H’es ogind. Uyo e,hrta os teh oden saw awwedllo aelh iecetpxon sady) ttah ot yrou the gngio nvree sfel ipyt y’euov godo iw(ht in lraeidze fra you nltui dab fo it. Angtki we agp secsasl cdivo lslit waay fo ew aevh yeth to btu rou ovle todn’ sinrgp aytcaull ubt lgarrue l’il eabkr ocleegl eewk a geollce rofm em is coolsh cnies rfo toensitnnex h’tseer ! flul aoky isth beeusac torghtee ngiog tub er’ew eakbr uro ggtntei be uecsa ist’ to and ,slsasec i’m krabe adn ruo l,sasesc oru od? eref fro so go no aipd aveh of newt oru ookt iangtk efil we mghit up,. Mi’ totato ahypp reew yoreamn ot to astl yteh ubt ohw tye prones tno mena gtetgni woh ineevpsex ’sm eooesnm !!! m’i cuebesa oigcfnsnu utp and htur tbu ew svereed e’rew is rdcepie sh’e aindreg dna but i,itdpsiapongn genttgi ndeeekw ’stin dlirzaee enso eth ggoin enevr us not i twhi :) ti ym eb emsa ndso’te eth tsih. Seevders ’esh laets ta emses ihwt ayhpp ’shatt aecseub won he ogdo os eh ti pyhpa adn gf e,sbba sih os. Tis’ ekep bene olas ihppeassn, tnenriisetg kntah hte uro swa u i,hwess neo oiwkrng swa grpinay tgaer daihytbr it ): tbu it ofr for na. To i upt ot si’tn as nad ): i that rdfowra hswi giuhsnp eom,r oudlc ayrcs ubtao is urtohgh uyo lal dan fnu we nad hte as nipa konw dna ozplgeaoi so ’oeyur worht ekpe rtuh relyal how tiggten be s’it 81 ti hhttugo aknid eesalp ghu.
Lslti yrapnig fro mi’ oru sseipnpah,.
Xox,o <3 lxe.

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