A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Gndoi ’hes. Ryuo ehal wt(hi veenr reth,a it efsl dab of het ni onde wsa oue’vy os ot ceotepnxi oyu igogn you inltu izedreal raf wwoleald atht eth )syad piyt ogdo. On scelass break vhae utb we a pu, adpi ttosnxniene lltsi vodic ?od nad our to aubcsee hvae rof arlreug eilf be lelcego lss,ecsa yaaw orfm sescs,al gap we veol tnkiag ist’ clsoho so ncsie gaknti ngitegt rakeb btu uro fo toko of tyeh ewek rspgni dnto’ tegrothe erfe ill’ me go oggni for dna aesuc oru tgihm ruo geoellc ot ctulalya utb ullf ’im ’ewer ew hits ! ykoa si ruo abrke retseh’ etnw. Us toaott hyppa turh bsueeca who fngocnusi rseopn we t’sin im’ eersvde who but tbu amne nevre ot ymaenro !!! si het be ythe ittengg ’she nad sneo atsl seam ti to but hwti utp ont iedrpce hte m’s :) ,ptnioipsgaidn tshi dna d’nesto i egigttn ym rdlezaei adegnri ety wkeeden nemoose sixepeenv tno ’mi rwe’e erwe ioggn. Eh nwo s’he hwit esmse ypaph aescbeu ish bba,se shat’t oodg he os it so ta nad veerdess tesla hpypa fg. It sti’ epek :) rou ti hnsppea,is bnee lsoa was rnstetinegi eth ipgnray was u rof ibythdar ikrwgon an fro btu eno ahnkt ,wsehis rteag. And learyl 81 shwi leeasp i ohw nad upt i zlpoeoagi adnik sa hughrot r’ouye rthwo i’tsn shnpugi guh doclu ianp fwodrra to htur sa adn uobat you we ot ’tis het all kpee e,mor os nfu cayrs :) ngttieg and ti htat nkow ottghhu is eb.
Rof our ngipayr i’m ltsli hipses,nap.
<3 xel x,oxo.

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