A letter from May 16th, 2019

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Ka-Rin, It is 9:23 pm on a Wednesday and I've decided that for my 18th birthday I'd surprise myself with a letter. From my 17-year-old self. There's a lot on my mind that I've been meaning to tell to someone who'll listen, anyone who'll listen honestly. And I hope by the time this letter gets to you that you will have at least told mommy. Um I ate a grapefruit today and searched up the benefits so guess who's eating grapefruits before every meal. I'm going to be completely honest I'm not sure what to write and it took me 5 minutes just to finish this sentence because of Andrew. I hope mommy got you what you wanted for your birthday, if not it's cool your older and more mature. LIfe is changing pretty fast and it can feel lonely (cliche right. I know) but you've got to pull it together and be the lawyer you've always wanted to meet. Please future me, be the rich eccentric aunt you've always wanted. (lol). Don't let anyone take you down and mess with your head or make you believe a lie, 17-year-old you is dependent on your success. Mama's gotta bring home the bacon and mama knows how to get it. Now I know what your thinking, "this letter kind of makes no sense." Well no duh it's written by a girl who hasn't been in school in a year and craves knowledge!! I'm starving here! I hope your happy with all the nutritious knowledge you've been gobbling up because it's essential to your sanity. I'm going crazy in this house. I have books sure but nothing is like sitting in a class and learning collectively with other pinheads. And by pinheads I mean idiots. Right now though, honestly, what I miss most is the adventures I took when I was with friends and sometimes even by myself. Future Ka-Rin, I truly hope you're happy, like really happy. Not putting on a smile for people but real happiness that you can feel. Sincerely, 17-year-old Ka-Rin p.s. I could've written more but I have a huge headache. Good night.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Okay here me out,
You're 20, and there is a pandemic. Yes, a pandemic. People are so bored that they've started arguing about vaccines, you're vaccinated, and you respect others...

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Olsoe in efel psleim ebmreemr eilk aenm atth ntihk grlnoe cmali mdni hte alos will on st'i dhlo on i em ro of dna fgo i lwil hntgsi i usjse c'tan. Deereg ot eamn pot teg seusj i cae'lshrob hjno og ta cssal of orf heret wlil ym dna ym nad rtedaaug eth ni lilw i jay wla. Tish tsignh nghsit is oen rea bpeoissl stohe fo adn lal. .
A on ofr oury ouy yad yuor no a inastndg odgo nkdi saw nda strfi dna yarhibdt got ti asw ho suroh a 2th0 no of bjo your jbo ubt robeef ftee. Ynrgvhieet eles yuo htwi utb uoy dela rekrowco piedl endde ducol the ti up rheboirl and. Myone godo dmea notd' uoy rwoyr. Xneprceeei nda in ylluo' a you ho rcyza wdolu ttha avhe ot oyu vrnee w!no!! huseo atht hknit 'ist tesgomhni eyar oyu a ghuthto sjut. Oru sseltauda nos btu aolddslnr rowyr, het do'tn dad tog by ni,fe ehs'. Itelda nkow uers go 'mi ondt' to tawn i ot emro into uoy btu wtna. Snoo ouhgen etg trhee yol'lu. .
T'is ohw gdo gtinh rrtaeeg anc to os is ahnepp sigthn tbu eseht eht sthi eevrneoy odwul etebtr zryca gstnih elt urvsi get throe that ahtt we dan eesl tiesggb eh ffietcgen ediedcd. Wrosk leki eh tsuj ttha. .
Tmei eth if peke llips syaer trhee nsy,ayaw tuo eahv ngiltka ttha i dan on il'l i tsal fro. .
Bsaeb olesodt. .

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