A letter from October 1st, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Hopefully, you are happy to where you are right now. You know your happiness is what really matters to me. For now, I'm still struggling to make your dream a reality. A dream where you are free to do whatever you want to do. Free of things that may struck you down for some reason. Are you still together? Are you already married? I'm so confused right now between staying, finding a new opportunity or go home. The first and second options are just so hard. I keep asking myself, if it's still worth it to stay and continue living in a place where I feel so dead. I have no life here. I don't care about the money at all. It's not like I won't be earning anything once I stop working. It's just that I care too much about what my parents may think of me. They wanted me to be in the workforce, "just like everyone else". But, I'm definitely not like everyone else, my needs are different. I am different and that's the only thing that i'm sure of as of now. In Regards of the things I want to do. I imagine myself living in Siargao all by myself, living happily. I don't know what happens in the future but I'm getting ready for you. I wonder where you are right now. Were you able to solve the problems I have right now? I pray to God always for your happiness. Best Wishes, Marianne