A letter from September 24th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Alex, You always thought that you were going to go through high school without ever getting your first kiss or ever going on a date. But then you met Gustavo. I don't know if you and him will still be together when you receive this, but I hope you are. He's treated you so sweetly and it's a wonderful experience, way different than any other. Your first kiss, Junior Homecoming September 22, 2018, wasn't what you were expecting, but it was still amazing. And he proceeded to kiss you three more times that night. Do you remember the song he kissed you to? It was "Stand by Me" by Prince Royce. You've experienced different kinds of love. There was Jenna, and Shirley, but neither of those were like the love you have experienced so far with Gustavo. I don't know how to explain it other than an overwhelming sense of happiness and affection. I see him everyday at school, yet I miss him so much when I'm at home. I want to kiss him every time I see him, and I just want to hold him tight and stay like that for a long time. He makes us happy, Alex. And I sure hope that he still does. You really deserve to be happy. If things didn't turn out so great between you and you don't really talk to him anymore, next time you see him, say hi. It may be awkward and weird and just unnecessary, but he's a good guy either way and who knows? Maybe you guys can be friends? I don't want things to end with him, but you never know what's going to happen in the future. i just hope that you enjoy everything and make sure that you spend time in the moment, not in the past. You'll never get the chance to be sixteen again, as dreadful as that sounds. But that's the way life works. I'm currently sixteen while writing this to you, and you should be seventeen when you receive this. Time flies quickly, Alex, it's something that frightens me now and may still frighten us in the future. Remember that this is your life, and you should live it your way because you only get one shot at this. When you receive this letter, I hope you don't think of it as some stupid thing your younger self did. I hope you actually take it into consideration and remember how you were a year before. That's all I have for now, so good luck, Alex. I hope you are okay, and if not, remember that you will be okay. Sincerely, Your Younger Self

Epilogue

over 2 years later

Dear Younger Self,

I remember when I first received this letter, I cringed when I read it. You wrote that at sixteen, and I received it at seventeen. A lot...

Sujt gulah ahtt i ni dna tbu awy etmi tno echdgan yevre nwo ni noe bda edra a ,this yaer i.
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Oury ntishg aws s,kis he ddeen tbu avtuosg sa slwtee,y ht,sign rof irstf eh ouy ewll hewli tisrf itybelrr eetrdta a he,ya as nyma. Ttha et,rag btu teehr smoe taht a losnehiraipt it ats'nw ewrent' reew dab tanssecin. Tjsu edn hda a dba ti. Atterm ot fylrakn ose'tdn aktl adn imh it eqtui omyn,ear uoy 'tdno. Ofod omfr but utsrtarena hsi 'yaslifm i od msis eht. Tsuj tou rrdeo gogin m'i heest sady hhaa to cryar fo eno. .
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Ahtlonisrepi in man aer srto eadnm we fo ihtw a j a. L. . Sa ylsawa did eh eth ueeabsc eb of adn ouy a tgtnieg kwo,n deden i mtigh lnmtsoeepyd od vaeh lriaitym, ni and off ouy anm you yas up thwi srot snet sa dan they nda. Isaedtl may we and eenb yt,r adn ouabt dagree a'nevht lkei we rkow r'tean iwht rgttoeeh we bhot ,thoer yet hlwei nog,l otu we btu whlei etreh itr,p thta lobssepi tno heca ot duwlo iwll be htis anym ti. If het ees ed'h ahev juts atrwse sdo,e awti ono,s to ell'w wre'e nigog aveel to dna test adn eh. .
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Ew be hpp,ya deesver i dna atth ot rof us od yuo antigwn iarpcpteea. I ehtn ackb you how eewr tlnigggrsu kwno. Ew na ngiurtsggl to ee,xntt tills rea now. Our leetrt uro su alehht a byiardth arieelr my s21t to eowtr tmlnea ccoesnrn iwht fro rnctreu i intoiegmnn. Elef are to ymlafi on ahtt ti is tub ash ntdeism inhkgnit shit mosec gnisht way enhw saceebu emlant het d,ogo i vahe uro to ngigo kpee ueesacb oasenr lesinsl i of. Lnsseli sa ti a ti is aeltmn si ea,clld. Mtarte my nigilv teh lnlgcia 'im top it osde'tn het pakr fo at or hemo enhcb a dorlw, hwehter. Eb ruo rof oayk yl'oul but 'tsi lwli eht ot eb ognig megthsion live ttah wtih srte ew ,lief of. Be aoky w'lle.
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Soed nsgspia su, eitm ltlis dose irhnftge ti sa ti. Didoe lvoe of enil in ukcsn we her clrak oyu teh dan gosns (i mrof itlsl aws one. "lel'w txesine htwi you eebivle fi aotbu got taht lein ot nca ",ngaai ti, be eenvr aklt dioed we yalucatl rlfsehe ). A rtoys tbu mstei, ehr enes iwetc 'atsth rcneotc in etm tohb ive' rhe adn tlear trfae orf a.
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L,fie leevbei ti's unfny i sceau is utb oru in eno hsit icriannoanetr. Eilf lnecryurt it the utsm i we let ew stih yaw igamkn si of teg not ot acnech iv,ilng ntgsih uor it and usor in eth era as taek one vlei. Sthi nejoy tterle tipu,sd i a odt'n i qitue aws ttha it ktinh tbi. A eilf? muhc oruy uoy a?koy atubo imet ohpiisnltrsea i anwt but nokw xnet nogig from od'tn so velo adesi aoubt rcrutne ot si rweti tboau terwi yoru ehar tlrete yambe more to lvoe on and t,tha utb aosl ,ti d'i i ahtw illts eels.
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Rlyeescni,.
Me.
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P. S. - by go laly we f,lniyla llo wno.

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