A letter from September 24th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Alex, You always thought that you were going to go through high school without ever getting your first kiss or ever going on a date. But then you met Gustavo. I don't know if you and him will still be together when you receive this, but I hope you are. He's treated you so sweetly and it's a wonderful experience, way different than any other. Your first kiss, Junior Homecoming September 22, 2018, wasn't what you were expecting, but it was still amazing. And he proceeded to kiss you three more times that night. Do you remember the song he kissed you to? It was "Stand by Me" by Prince Royce. You've experienced different kinds of love. There was Jenna, and Shirley, but neither of those were like the love you have experienced so far with Gustavo. I don't know how to explain it other than an overwhelming sense of happiness and affection. I see him everyday at school, yet I miss him so much when I'm at home. I want to kiss him every time I see him, and I just want to hold him tight and stay like that for a long time. He makes us happy, Alex. And I sure hope that he still does. You really deserve to be happy. If things didn't turn out so great between you and you don't really talk to him anymore, next time you see him, say hi. It may be awkward and weird and just unnecessary, but he's a good guy either way and who knows? Maybe you guys can be friends? I don't want things to end with him, but you never know what's going to happen in the future. i just hope that you enjoy everything and make sure that you spend time in the moment, not in the past. You'll never get the chance to be sixteen again, as dreadful as that sounds. But that's the way life works. I'm currently sixteen while writing this to you, and you should be seventeen when you receive this. Time flies quickly, Alex, it's something that frightens me now and may still frighten us in the future. Remember that this is your life, and you should live it your way because you only get one shot at this. When you receive this letter, I hope you don't think of it as some stupid thing your younger self did. I hope you actually take it into consideration and remember how you were a year before. That's all I have for now, so good luck, Alex. I hope you are okay, and if not, remember that you will be okay. Sincerely, Your Younger Self

Epilogue

over 2 years later

Dear Younger Self,

I remember when I first received this letter, I cringed when I read it. You wrote that at sixteen, and I received it at seventeen. A lot...

Yaw time tno jtus ni i a ttha gulah adb eard dna aeyr i ni own eyevr one ht,is decnhga ubt.
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Btu ,sewtyel tlrerybi yman you eh gh,nist ofr eh uyro sirtf lweih lwle aws sa ea,hy as ik,ss asvguto eendd a dtaetre sftir tisngh. Loiariepthsn ubt it atth erteh erwe osem swtn'a dba agr,te a ttha rtewe'n nnssaeict. Dha ti dab edn tsju a. Ti ot s'ndeto mhi qetui lkta emnaoy,r ttarem flkarny uoy adn o'dnt. Siyf'lam tesautnarr eht sih fmro mssi od tbu i fdoo. Mi' ycarr eeths ahah tou rodre to fo ujst noe sday iogng. .
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In a fo j rasiinophlet era damne tsor nma a ihwt ew. L. . Yuo a be sa eht do fof dneed and ehva sa oyu fo eh nad trso ittengg dan i,yatlmir i nma ays thye csbeeau nk,wo in esnt hitw idd onpeesltdmy tmhig pu uyo nad ayswla. Ewilh hace ymna ngol, ilweh owrk be to y,tr atht it pibesosl liwl dlowu tou eyt autob ew ew ntah've may thwi oehrt, obth earged and tetrgohe nad been ew ont tdsiael ew hteer ,prti iekl hist tbu 'nreat. Nda sutj gngoi ese hd'e fi ree'w nda do,se ot watser itwa ttes he laeev avhe nos,o eht to we'll. .
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Dan prieptaaec be to uyo od hay,pp orf evrdsee i su aigtwnn tath ew. Ownk ehtn gnrugilsgt rewe who back i you. Exent,t tlisl aer won we lgruggistn an to. Eotrw ithw rof csconenr ielrrea uor iitnneomgn dbrayiht us our ot 1s2t ectrrun my i tlenam thlaeh etrtel a. Famyli ssilnle to tbu ltaemn tidsenm this do,og feel on si gonig wehn eecasub ot rou hiktinng noaser haev teh hsa epek i fo way asueecb tshgni are i ti eomcs ttha. Sa slinsel enmlta is it l,cdale is a it. Hencb ym wl,odr of the im' it or ivlgin iganlcl rpka termta teh mheo a whethre at pto ndose't. Htengimos oyka ofr eb ttha vlei f,iel ruo t'si gnoig we will ubt fo ulloy' to sret eht eb thwi. Eb ll'we ykao.
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Does it stlli sa mite it edso issapng rgnihfte u,s. Neli teh i( cakrl erh yuo in neo ksncu tilsl veol fo asw we and ieodd osgsn rofm. Ogt 'll"ew to fi we anc i,t rvnee slfeehr lalytcau atkl elebvie atbou uoy xtseine ) eoidd thta whti agn",ia be inle. Hre bhot yotsr 'tshat ie'v rof ,stemi tem a rteal rhe a cweti ni dan esne tfera but rcconet.
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Si nyufn utb lf,ie iveleeb ncotaeirniarn in iths ucesa noe rou 'tsi i. Iglnv,i i si teh het vile ywa it oru as isth ni fo nthsig and ruso ear etka noe ew ntyrlrcue smtu tle ew eccnha ton etg ti kagmni efli to. Tikhn do'nt ibt teetlr atht aws yonej i ietuq ,tdusip i a it siht. Irewt i,t uobta so i orem ltils esdia hucm twan atbou tneiiasrsohpl is 'di iggno eolv slee a,htt yoa?k oyu to oyur 'nodt orfm aebmy tub txen a erah rncerut onwk i ?eilf no iwret to ryuo adn btu uoatb emit eovl olas ettlre tawh.
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Nl,iecerys.
Me.
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P. S. All,ifny ally now lol we go - yb.

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