A letter from August 18th, 2018

Why hello there, SSS! Remember? That's what Maddie used to call you back when you still played Elsword. As I'm writing this, I miss those days. But you know what you won't miss? THIS SUMMER. You spent all of it procrastinating and you've done almost nothing. You were quite motivated when you started this summer but you've grown tired as time has passed. You've tried to help mom but she never gave you clear directions so it always felt as if you were doing nothing. You had no clear goal in that job. It makes me want to roll on the ground and cry thinking back at it- how you felt useless when trying to be helpful to someone. And you got really really angry because of that. And of course, mom mistook that for you not liking her. And that made you even more frustrated. I'm really tired. I haven't done much. I'm too lazy to start anything, yet there are so many things I want to do. I want to draw more, and sell more, and buy new clothes, and hopefully also buy that sweet, SWEET and precious Huion gt220 v2!! So I'm wondering, are you still procrastinating up to this day? Didn't you start anything? Are you still avoiding your priorities? DID YOU BUY ALL DEM CLOTHES? Did you get that donut hoodie you were dying to get? Hey y'know what, let's make a gage. You're supposed to receive this letter on your birthday, so by that time, I hope you have achieved the following things: - Do Yoga everyday! - Logged only once a week on facebook - DRAW. EVERY. DAY. starting from now. idc how you feel, it's your job. You should JUST do it. Start it from the hour you finish writing this letter. There's no more escaping from your responsabilities! - Buy that lovely donut hoodie <3333 (And some shoes. And some jeans too. It's been about 7 years since I last bought new clothes, so.... I can dream, right? YOU BETTER REALIZE MY DREAMS.) - Stop losing time. I mean, you can lose it once you finish. - eat healthyyyyyyyyyyy aaaaaaand stay healthy. That's what's most important. And don't care about what mom says about "you don't eat anything anymore" just because you eat less chicken and meat and more beans, seeds and fish. - Stop getting angry. (Cross in that lil notebook everytime you feel like you're going to get angry mmmmkay?) So uhmmm... yeah. I'm still too lazy to get up and do stuff so I'm still sitting here. I was told to clean the house today... I wish to draw some before that. My back hurts too because I didn't wake up early enough to do some yoga. And I'm smelly. And I feel like my hair is a chicken nest. SO. SINCE THIS IS A GAGE. In case you don't do these! All of them! You'll have to.......... hmm... what will you have to do? Well, I say it's okay if you fail doing any of those. Just stay fine, dear me. THOUUUUUGH I SAY, if you do a good job during the day, sure don't forget to treat yourself with some date+chocolate bars! Maybe party every weekend if you reach your weekly goal! O, and don't forget that daily morning carrot+zucchini smoothie. I hope you won't be orange when I see you again. At the end, I just want to tell you that you really have to do something about it. You only won 40$ this whole summer. You really gotta do something. Get up now. Get up now. GET UP NOW. okay, maybe I'll get up after this TEDx video. But I sure hope you don't procrastinate anymore like me! Remember to only watch videos at night when you've got nothing else better to do. Maybe have one hour a day to do so. Relax with a book, or read an article. Aaaand now I shall leave you. This day won't ever come back so I hope you're not wasting time on something else. I hope you're not wasting your energy either on getting frustrating about things. I hope you're doing amazing. I hope you're healthy. I hope you're happy. I hope you're relaxed. <3 I'm sending you all the kisses from the past! I'm sure you'll have grown into a more responsible woman by the time you read this letter. I want you to know that I love you and want you to look better and live better. you have my full support. Please take care of mom, too. Show her that you love her very much. I don't know how. Kiss her, bake her favorite cakes, love her. Let her be safe. Love you. LOVE YOU SO HARD. EVEN MORE THAN MY FaVOrITE DiSH. I change my mind on my favorite foods too much anyway, so you're probably my favorite thing in the world anyway. BEcause you're me. Ciao!!!