A letter from July 31st, 2018

Peaceful right?

Hello. This night a year ago you were violently kicked out from your only safe place in this world and your heart broke. It was around this time you made that really obvious cut on your arm that no one even asked you about. Has the scar faded at all? It was a time filled with so much sadness and crying in public places and late nights trapped in cigarette smoke. This night right now you are filled with overwhelming sadness. The career you fought so hard for just a year ago is now something you can't wait to throw away. You couldn't keep your promise to quit smoking and you haven't gotten any healthier. You are feeling so alone right now and you are so scared of the future. Something snapped within you and nothing excites you anymore. I pray that all this has changed. Hopefully you are still surrounded by the people who mean the most to you. Are you finally doing something good for the ones who need it more? Have you fallen in love and maybe had your heart broken again? Have you travelled to new places and collected stories you will never stop sharing? You recently came back from a trip to Taiwan. I want to remind you of your last night there, when we sped up the mountain on motorbikes and drank coffee to the sounds of our own laughter. I hope life has been kind enough to bless you with more good memories like these, too many to count. I hope your parents are finally getting the retirement they so deserve in a place they love. Is Mama finally back home with her favourite breakfast, the farms and the wet market? Are your brothers doing alright for themselves? My wish for you now is that life does not torment you. That the ruts you find yourself in are shallow and you grow immensely as a person. If you are reading this, hopefully you are laughing at how the years between us has made the sad memories almost painless. I have no idea what I'm doing in life but maybe you do. That's all I need right now to keep going.

Epilogue

3 months later

Hello!

It's us again. Reading this made me smile, then made me cry again. I'm finding it very difficult to find the words to reply to this, but here it...

Egso. .
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Rae ascsr you noe all eerh ltlsi on wree the fgenrirre uryo o,t ehwvecirh mr,a. Emorrasf, eoelpp athe my utocignh nbee ndwo itlls but tlleit ekrnob a i 'iev. Ahve file htne omlta,s ot my wehn r,lae my ma i that liyad i uyckl taps ewer dtn'di i i teh kwen os sa ta siht i haev read smsieoetm frmo seenfilg utb iotnp onw fo epcases eimsrsaanbgr ihknt and het atth. Donw i it itqu uct n'avthe v'ei lemsemyni isomkgn, laghtouh. I only is lingvi eninvetmnro iflstlyee sbeucae ertlehahi the am fo ym ni ercrtulyn. And kiel no'estd i efle ,dsya exeict em seom sltli neamoyr ilef. Bda si nad lsauuyl call adys i adn xnte stju opeh si ti mthe eth eno er,ttbe. .
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Aawy vdmeo dan niddt' omce i back. Esauc nwats' i that, myabe kitnh ouy wtener' inxepcget k,fuc. Ie'v if lieltt elfi wluod eybam omgnci 4 rae,ys oesth kaetn hvea oyu usoysirel wnke ,syrae 4 ouy was adn bnee lses a tawh eehr. Voel ni land olgna nad mhte aedm innnicdoltoua emad ti y,wa sarmde eoy,rpt eth het fo adn dfirnes dufno yuo endshdur of hsape to fo r,tue. Erope,u so us i ewre nda tem emad i irtp mayn in up nio,rseuct tsap in a nwet ot entfirdfe to 4 hte peolep ynam htiw os ew lal who payph so irfensd as,rye see elneytrc on. Os are dvole we. Avnei with nsoerp vleo away ouy eht ni too to flle nwogr kwla dan swa. Taresdt lla mhcu we hte nad dolcu odgni gudsr iomgnsk ,weed nfid ngidnkir oot. Now lal ahtt ve'i tuqi. Good ihws ubt hghtrou smoetsiem i swa ti tath nlses,o a renve eayllr su i kucf ptu. Ti i itme dasy ot o,nw a teg reggstlu bcak ot reewh toko dan ma emos nlgo iltsl i. Mhuc ekli add ofmr us no cptcea ttha a rcssa ot evi' ceom llwi atht the srsac to ftle ,fteiieml tsal ocem het. To erisea lyrael ivle tyhe etg ohep wtih i. .
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Yoru dna to tpu evne htwi ni eraft oenmoes all oyu uildber is, doog lvoe oyu ewns fiel ,ttah hte ouy ellf ihwt pu tedir wlihe. On oldwr h,im ouy amn you nrtoea,h het eht fuodn os is ni teh asureetr rofm now hmwoseo t,ho ladi neo yuo ikugcfn sornpe thta mtonem tsom or esye eidkl oyu hwo. I newh oyu anlog noe fo mirepso a hse' ti,em tub htem a aniwgnt ,aaing iionpalhetr,s teharon odog twener' it oen oyu thsi endahppe meac. I fro my rnleta su ,solsen. C'ndotlu haev a rnepatr ew'll i time mih orf nad pkee etbtre sadke itnkh i hsti. .
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Hugla ot cyr dsad' d'otn nrpiedegtn musm' i s'eotnd nad mi' ot xent goign abtou so lesl our dene est her arey ehs dna clhohidod enek em,oh which eretir ,lcdreape. Hrtee did mhte btho ultrhage when i dan see ti,isv and oag etyh nomth was ofr acem esrta a a. Het auhtgolh tatse brorhets lwodr hte rae tvn'hae fo 3 hatw lirtgah lomsat het i mfor yraes tihw ni i nees rhea, temh. Eb tghhou moeh osno lli'. .
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Rotetmedn elfi hsa us. And 'tnehva lswaya aicdtmra otn ayok hntsgi lope,ep tn,elmalooiy llnaymet eenb 'weer utb nda 'hstta esya. Rogwn teh dah dna tshegih w'eev lsteow hcmu rou ,epsnor as igshh adn way anogl a oswl so. Vedli we ulayaclt. Us aosl gdoo to lful, file ahs and neeb. Teh a now the i adnutnrdes otl chea tbu seieomrm, pnirsrsylgu,i dsa rtbete tno seisp,lna aer. What but mmtesoise iths vaeh mi' on deia nyeoignj yanway i isllt e'rew iognd,. Athp eth a a go ,operyt of it tiem, si eerh rsaedm ot mi' hpe,l ow,n nda fo atekn nad eutufr sti' a ni tub ofr tib nlda lto dan rtehe of a hgcnosio ndow. Tsbe nerlog is, hte efel ew no nealo ptra. .

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