A letter from Nov 14, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, how’s life going? are you feeling happier with yourself?❤️‍🩹 have you stopped smoking yet lol? did you learn how to roll a blunt properly? how was ur a-level results?!!!!!!! what uni are you going to and how is it? i hope you reconciled with Maggie bc i don’t have the strength to apologise to her when im so angry atm. are you still in contact with the ogs? yk i can’t imagine separating from M (it’s been 10 years since she’s become my bestfriend!!). but how is L, is she healthy and happy now? ➡️if not in contact (☹️) have you made any new friends in uni? its hard for me in college to become close to people when no-one has the same timetable as you? did you ever manage to keep my room clean and stop procrastinating? do you have a new job? do you still model? i hope you have built up your confidence and learnt to walk in heals! did you ever get the adhd diagnosis? it’s been 2 years for me ugh. also please play piano again pls pls pick it back up. xoxo past girl

Epilogue

about 20 hours later

hey baby me,

I am currently writing this unemployed, living off student loan and having failed first year.
You were so right on about that ADHD diagnosis girl so no...

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Ooxx lirg rfuuet.